the original ah lian;
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
like. the world sucks, yeah.
because sometimes the truth hurts more than the lies.
and there are some things people should never see.
or hear, so they can go about their happy; ignorant lives.
i wouldn't mind to live like that.
our class got something again LAR.
i have no idea how am i gonna continue studying a subject i swore to get better marks like no matter how; cause like so AWKWARD; yeah.
but i have decided to try my best to finish every thing that the teachers assign because...bo pian la. no choice -_-.
i got people questioning my ATTITUDE, yeah.
like hello? this is MY personality.
you think that i'm a clay doll that you don't like and you can form me into whatever you like?
mom told me that i must 学做人 and i admit i must come across as a bit selfish at times, but like ; HELLO, you double standard lady.
likewise, i shall now twist the words of the statement.
YOU ALSO MUST LEARN HOW TO ACCEPT OTHER PEOPLE'S FAULTS.
Please don't make me look at you as childish. I accept you have your faults and i accept that its part of what you are and like everyone get irritated with someone sometimes; its human for goodness sake, my dear heavenly messenger.
You question why it was you giving and 'always' me taking.
I disappeared and you immediately ran to complain why i am so selfish, always you giving, just because I refused to treat you to 'anything'....
but you forgot the one thing why i refused you.
whatever YOU like, may not be what WE like.
when you bought cheese flavor, i was like 'ugh. ewww.'
I don't really like cheese.
thats why I came back with original flavor chips, duh -_-.
like a turtle and its shell. tsk. you only stick your head out when I'm not around.
of course, its human nature to try to not hurt other people's feelings, but your face gave it all away.
fine.
less obvious please, SJ -_-.
everyone has their quirks and horrible habits, its not like you are the only 'pure' 'perfect' specimen.
likewise, you cannot expect everyone to like you. its like common sense?
your naviety is laughable and irritating.
you cannot expect to like your future boss.
but its not black and white.
the whole world is made of shades of grey, dammit.
rarely you get pure black or white.
i admit that i'm lazy and sometimes i come across as selfish because i can't be bothered to get up my ass and help you. but i'm trying okay? i try not to let someone shoulder everything alone.
but everyone is entitled to moments like these.
alone time.
cherie for one, cannot stand to be alone. she is like a socialite.
i'm like a lone wolf. we all need to have alone time.
i need it more than normal people.
i need attention too, and sometimes i admit i do stupid things, say dumb things or something just to get or attention or get your admiration or something.
4 'things' in a sentence. my vocabulary really sucks sometimes.
You share all the time, its your nature.
I like to have somethings alone to myself.
Like...you may not like it, but its the way i get things done.
there is no concrete set of rules to life.
if not it'll be like so easy to walk through life.
i shall try to me more likeable.
but how much of me can you change?
past that and i'll not be celestine.
I'll not be me.
likewise to our class affair-thing.
sir, you have to understand its not a bed of roses.
neither its a bed of thorns, please.
lower your expectations and please.
we are not model angels.
and you never ever look on the good things that happened to you -_-.
and people have sharp thorns.
i suggest you thicken your skin else you'll scar easily.
subarashiki sekai 11:35 AM
